Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Stuff

I chose "anxious" as my mood, although "depressed" would be a better description.  I feel like I've been socked in the gut tonight.  I go on with life, trying to be upbeat and carry on, but the facts are the facts.

People died in hurricanes.  People are displaced due to hurricanes.  People need medication, hot meals, and fresh water.  I have all those.  I can't wrap my head around it, but I'm trying.  Then, today, another blow.

A VERY good customer and VERY sweet lady, one of my favorites, had a tragedy.  They live in Colorado and have two studios.  They are patient and kind, soft-spoken and loving.  They found their 12-year-old son in his treehouse the other night.  He had (probably) hung himself.  TWELVE. FRIGGIN'.YEARS.OLD.  12.  A little boy, really.  Just a little boy of 12.  Why? 

I have no words.  What do I say to this super lady.  "Oh, sorry your son killed himself."?  I think not.  Suicide is the most selfish, ugly thing a depressed person can do to his/her family.  If you life is that bad, do you wish that on your family members?  I have always been angry at anyone who commits suicide, but 12?  Holy Shit.  Misery has a new level.

God Bless you and your family, Mary.  God grant you peace and understanding.  My prayers and thoughts are with you tonight, and for many nights to come.  There will be no understanding for you for many years, so I won't blow smoke.  Just know that you have support.

Damn.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

oh man how sad i dont know how they go on and yes what can you say ?????

Anonymous said...

How very sad! My heart (and prayers) go out to this lady and her family.....and to you as well!

Anonymous said...

This probably won't help you feel any better -- but there was recently a story on CNN about teens and pre-teens trying to get high by choking themselves so that the brain would be momentarily starved of oxygen.  Apparently it causes a euphoric rush of some sort.  It used to just go on among college-age kids, but it's now filtering down to even elementary school.  Talk to your kids about this and use it as a lesson.  Scare the shit out of them and tell them to pass the info on.  

Sending you a hug,
Russ

Anonymous said...

THIS IS SO SAD ,WORDS ARENT ADEQUATE,prayers and love to your friend.Jan xx

Anonymous said...

Oh goodness. It's just so hard to understand, you're left with so many unanswered questions. Someone so young. My prayers are with your friend and her family.